Happiness on my path.

I have recently found myself trying to dig deep into my life and find true happiness.

I look back to the times when I first rode my bike without trianing wheels or got a "puppy dog" stuffed animal for Christmas...

And then I think to myself--What is true happiness?

I have heard people say that "true happiness is much more than a smile on your face, it's a way of looking at the world." or "True happiness is when you have enough of what you have."

Then I realize, the only time that I have felt what I would call "true happiness" is in the presence of the Lord. Although most times that I feel His strong presence, I find myself weeping. I can't even explain it, but it makes me weak. It's when you know He is right there with you even when you have hit rock bottom. When you know that everything you have encountered in the past was in His plan to make you who you are today. When you know that every sin you have committed is forgiven no matter the circumstance.

I was baptized on July 24th, 2009, and I would not have it any other way. I am not saying that since then my life has been perfect because that would be a lie. I am saying that God has been working through my heart and changing my life since then more than ever. I have been seeking His will and purpose for my life with all my heart. This day above all others was a day of complete true happiness.

I have been trying to find the path of where He is leading me to be. I know that where He wants me to go is leading me to true happiness.

So I have been asking "What's next?"

I have been stuck between 2 colleges.

Northwest Christian University and George Fox University.

I have sat down with a couple different people and discussed the pros and cons of both colleges and I still cannot seem to choose which one I feel like I need to go to. I have been waiting on one thing to happen to just completely shift my mind one way or another but I have been getting impatient.

 I have found myself trying to change things myself instead of relying on God to guide me the right direction. 

I know He has an amazing plan for me and both colleges are SO great....But how long must I wait?